I have a sad little story, ends with me in two
Or lose my mental state as I just watch you drug abuse
Yeah, you're using my mental illness as an overreaction
I get that from my family enough as it is
It's just business for my family psychiatrist
I don't understand it, why do I have to take meds?
Imagine trying to explain to a 12-year-old
Why he has depression, and see he doesn't smile now
Maybe God made me this way for a reason
But lately, I don't see anything worth believing
I know suicide won't get me to a better place
But it's been on my mind lately, and you know I'm scared to face
My emotions and my issues and my problems
Yeah, they stack and stack, and build up a castle around me
Until it collapses and I'm just smothered under rubble
Not coming up, not coming up for breath this time
You hate me, I hate me too
My eyes see double of you
Infractions I can't handle
I just seem to go under again
You love to push and abuse
Gun to your head I shoot through
Doesn't matter how it turns out
'Cause the best of me is always you
Lay in the wake of depression, I'm losing, I'm anxious
Maybe I'll jump off that bridge when I face it
I'm not good with my own mental health
Having conversations 'bout whether I wanna live or die
Every time, it's like I'm just on the suicide hotline
For my friends, yeah, they're not happy, some have cut off their lifeline
Living on a mi goreng diet, yeah, it's instant depression
All warmed up in 60 seconds
Yeah, I hate how we have to live this
Making drug drop-offs to the next corner
Can't get a real job, can't get qualified
What do I do when all I got left is the music?
And friends, yeah, living on the edge of depression
Anxiety wants to say that he's always mentioned
In every conversation that you ever have
But yeah, that's life, yeah, you get what you get
You hate me, I hate me too
My eyes see double of you
Infractions I can't handle
I just seem to go under again
You love to push and abuse
Gun to your head I shoot through
Doesn't matter how it turns out
'Cause the best of me is always you
You hate me, I hate me too
My eyes see double of you
Infractions I can't handle
I just seem to go under again
You love to push and abuse
Gun to your head I shoot through
Doesn't matter how it turns out
'Cause the best of me is always you
